So I weighed in on Tuesday as usual and I'm down 2.4 lbs to 158! waahooo! I'm a half a pound off of what my lowest has been so far!! WOOT! I'm hoping next week I'll majorly get below! :D I have good thoughts going that way ;)
Anyway, I think I've been doing rather awesome at the gym. I feel tired, but great after every work out. I've kinda stepped away from the big weights unless it's like chest :) And really all I do is bench press. I don't see any harm in that. Everything else is just my body weight. LOTS of cardio and body weight stuff. Ton's of abs, squats throwing a 10 lb medicine ball up at a wall, push ups of all varieties, back extensions, dips, pull ups... lots of things that don't require weights, just me.
So yeah, that's whats goin on so far. Still haven't heard from my honey since Friday. Well, besides a letter that he wrote on Thursday with a bunch of info I already know. It was great though.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
I go lightspeed!!!
Ok, maybe not light speed, but better than I thought! I ran 2 miles in 17:03 today and total surprised myself. I basically went off of what I have done and thats usually when i get to 2 miles or more it's at the fastest an average of 9 minute miles or more. like when I did my 4 mile run, they were 10 minute miles. Well If you calculate these 2 miles out, that's 8:30 miles! freakin' awesome! Another awesome thing is my last recorded fastest mile was 7:59, so to run 2 miles only 30 seconds on average slower... i'm amazed. I think I may need to recheck my mile. I think I can do better than that now. Anyway, I've started a regime to help my pull ups too. I want to be able to do one by the time Bub gets home. at least one. I did 5 with a 40 lbs assist, so I guess I technically pulled up almost 120 lbs! YAY! It was very poor, but I did it.
Still eating healthy, all whole foods. Today was oatmeal, cottage cheese, apple, egg beaters, cherries, turkey sammich and yogurt. YUM! :D
Weigh in is tomorrow. We'll see how that turns out.
Isn't it great when you're just sitting, thinking and a memory pops in? It could be 5 years ago or 5 minutes ago. This one happened to be 5 minutes ago. It made me giggle :)
Anywho, still no word from my honey since Friday when he needed the least faxed.. I hope I get a phone call or letter soon. I could really use it. I worry sometimes, but then realize he's probably ok. He's a pretty tough dude.
That's all... :)
Still eating healthy, all whole foods. Today was oatmeal, cottage cheese, apple, egg beaters, cherries, turkey sammich and yogurt. YUM! :D
Weigh in is tomorrow. We'll see how that turns out.
Isn't it great when you're just sitting, thinking and a memory pops in? It could be 5 years ago or 5 minutes ago. This one happened to be 5 minutes ago. It made me giggle :)
Anywho, still no word from my honey since Friday when he needed the least faxed.. I hope I get a phone call or letter soon. I could really use it. I worry sometimes, but then realize he's probably ok. He's a pretty tough dude.
That's all... :)
Friday, August 14, 2009
WWOOHOOO!!!
First off, I got phone call numero DOS this morning! It was strictly business (needing a copy of the lease so he can get BAH) but it was AWESOME to hear his voice. He sounded a lot less frazzled this time, either that or the phone was ton's better (which it sounded like it was). At any rate it was awesome, but i'm coming to expect a call every morning which I KNOW is not going to continue to happen. He's set to start basic on Wednesday so from there on out I'm not expecting much.
Second! (i love these list things) I worked out today. Something moderately easy on the cardio. 20 minutes on the elliptical for 2.5 miles, 12 minutes on the bike (and holy shit was I sweating) for 3.5 miles. I just went on to do some non weighted things. 30 regular sit ups, 15 REAL push ups (not that girly crap ;)) 20 cross over crunches for each side, 5 close hand push ups (just below the shoulder, I SUCK at these), 60 flutter kicks on a 2 count, 15 more regular push ups, 20 leg raises to a crunch, aaaand (this is what i'm most proud of) FIVE five count push ups! If you don't know what a 5 count push up, or a 5 count anything is than listen up! 5 count is when you do everything in 5 counts, you know 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. So push ups it's a 5 count down and a 5 count up. SLOW count. About a second each. It's HARD. You should try it. And finally I ended with 10 excruciatingly hard sit ups. My abs were just burnt!! As for my food I had a bowl of cereal, taco salad, strawberries, grapes, turkey sammich and cottage cheese. Also, mark another day I did NOT have any candy or goodies at work! That's day 3! May seem silly to some people but this is a HUGE weakness for me.
I'm going to take it easy tomorrow as I'm a little shaky today from workin out so hard these last couple of days. I may just go on a walk. Anywho, that's all.
Second! (i love these list things) I worked out today. Something moderately easy on the cardio. 20 minutes on the elliptical for 2.5 miles, 12 minutes on the bike (and holy shit was I sweating) for 3.5 miles. I just went on to do some non weighted things. 30 regular sit ups, 15 REAL push ups (not that girly crap ;)) 20 cross over crunches for each side, 5 close hand push ups (just below the shoulder, I SUCK at these), 60 flutter kicks on a 2 count, 15 more regular push ups, 20 leg raises to a crunch, aaaand (this is what i'm most proud of) FIVE five count push ups! If you don't know what a 5 count push up, or a 5 count anything is than listen up! 5 count is when you do everything in 5 counts, you know 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. So push ups it's a 5 count down and a 5 count up. SLOW count. About a second each. It's HARD. You should try it. And finally I ended with 10 excruciatingly hard sit ups. My abs were just burnt!! As for my food I had a bowl of cereal, taco salad, strawberries, grapes, turkey sammich and cottage cheese. Also, mark another day I did NOT have any candy or goodies at work! That's day 3! May seem silly to some people but this is a HUGE weakness for me.
I'm going to take it easy tomorrow as I'm a little shaky today from workin out so hard these last couple of days. I may just go on a walk. Anywho, that's all.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
A list of things...
Yes, I have a list of things. This isn't about one thing or another, it's about a list.
First off, my love left. Sad sad day for the both of us. I haven't heard from him in a whole day now, which is different, but ok. I know he'll be fine. He said he wants to make me proud. He'll make me proud no matter what, I know it. We've figured out his graduation is either going to be hopefully October 16 or October 23. I'm hoping the latter of the 2 (seems silly to want the further away one I know) but Oct 22 would be our 2 year anniversary, so that'd be awesome to spend it with him. I miss him like freakin crazy, but I refuse to let this time away be a hinder to either one of us. We will both become stronger, better people.
Numero Dos. My food journal for today. I feel the need to write it out because I'm DAMN proud of it. When W left, the next day and did some HEALTHY grocery shopping. I mean seriously healthy. Not one piece of processed food. It's awesome. I love looking in my fridge. I got cherries and grapes that I separated and bagged, and ground turkey and yogurt and all kinds of good stuff... SEE!
So on with the journal.
Woke up and had a bowl of honey bunches of oats (not the BEST, but bub bought some before he left and I figured i'd finish the box. It's a good transition move).
Went to the gym, came home and had a cut up tomato and cottage cheese. Good protein from the cottage cheese.
Lunch had a Turkey and cheese sammich on wheat. yum!
Dinner I had a Taco salad, with the meat being made out of the ground turkey! lettuce, spinach, tomato, little bit of shredded colby jack, turkey taco meat and about 2 tbsp's of spicy ranch dressing. YUM! that was seriously delish!
My last 2 snacks will be a banana and/or a yogurt. Depends on if i'm hungry for both. Maybe just one. I didn't get a middle snack because my lunch and dinner were too close and I like to eat my dinners fairly early.
So yeah! There it is! I think the main reason I'm so proud is because lately, I've been munching at work. People have all kinds of snacks and treats at work and I always take a bite here and a bite there. Those are one to many bites. I asked a friend what's a good method. He said it's just like any other mind setting task. You just have to put your mind to it, get through it a couple times, then it'll eventually not even matter. Another good something I heard was for people who sneak food. You're only hurting yourself. Like if you say "i'm on a diet" but then grab a burger on the way home. You're only cheating yourself. Why do that?
On to number THREE! I took my last birth control pill on Sunday! YAHOO!!! I haven't been able to tell a serious difference yet, but I'm hoping to come the next week or so. If you're reading this and have no idea what I'm talking about let me explain. For awhile I'd been noticing some negative things about myself. I got real depressed, anxious, worrisome. I always thought something bad was going to happen. That's not me. I'm an optimist! I had lower back pains and uncontrollable emotions. I got mad or irritated at the smallest things. I chalked it up to living with a man. haha! Honestly though. It all started when W moved in with me, so I figured that was it. Ironically, it also happened when I started taking my BC. So after doing some research I found I'm not the only one with these symptoms. There's HUNDREDS. So I decided when W left, I'd stop. I don't NEED it, as I'll have no one to bump dirties with and hopefully it will help clear up my emotions! haha!
Anyway. Lots going on in life and I've come up with several ideas to help pass the time with out my honey. If you need help, wanna hang, ANYTHING, I'm free. Well, except for when I have to go to the gym. That's a must ;)
First off, my love left. Sad sad day for the both of us. I haven't heard from him in a whole day now, which is different, but ok. I know he'll be fine. He said he wants to make me proud. He'll make me proud no matter what, I know it. We've figured out his graduation is either going to be hopefully October 16 or October 23. I'm hoping the latter of the 2 (seems silly to want the further away one I know) but Oct 22 would be our 2 year anniversary, so that'd be awesome to spend it with him. I miss him like freakin crazy, but I refuse to let this time away be a hinder to either one of us. We will both become stronger, better people.
Numero Dos. My food journal for today. I feel the need to write it out because I'm DAMN proud of it. When W left, the next day and did some HEALTHY grocery shopping. I mean seriously healthy. Not one piece of processed food. It's awesome. I love looking in my fridge. I got cherries and grapes that I separated and bagged, and ground turkey and yogurt and all kinds of good stuff... SEE!
So on with the journal.
Woke up and had a bowl of honey bunches of oats (not the BEST, but bub bought some before he left and I figured i'd finish the box. It's a good transition move).
Went to the gym, came home and had a cut up tomato and cottage cheese. Good protein from the cottage cheese.
Lunch had a Turkey and cheese sammich on wheat. yum!
Dinner I had a Taco salad, with the meat being made out of the ground turkey! lettuce, spinach, tomato, little bit of shredded colby jack, turkey taco meat and about 2 tbsp's of spicy ranch dressing. YUM! that was seriously delish!
My last 2 snacks will be a banana and/or a yogurt. Depends on if i'm hungry for both. Maybe just one. I didn't get a middle snack because my lunch and dinner were too close and I like to eat my dinners fairly early.
So yeah! There it is! I think the main reason I'm so proud is because lately, I've been munching at work. People have all kinds of snacks and treats at work and I always take a bite here and a bite there. Those are one to many bites. I asked a friend what's a good method. He said it's just like any other mind setting task. You just have to put your mind to it, get through it a couple times, then it'll eventually not even matter. Another good something I heard was for people who sneak food. You're only hurting yourself. Like if you say "i'm on a diet" but then grab a burger on the way home. You're only cheating yourself. Why do that?
On to number THREE! I took my last birth control pill on Sunday! YAHOO!!! I haven't been able to tell a serious difference yet, but I'm hoping to come the next week or so. If you're reading this and have no idea what I'm talking about let me explain. For awhile I'd been noticing some negative things about myself. I got real depressed, anxious, worrisome. I always thought something bad was going to happen. That's not me. I'm an optimist! I had lower back pains and uncontrollable emotions. I got mad or irritated at the smallest things. I chalked it up to living with a man. haha! Honestly though. It all started when W moved in with me, so I figured that was it. Ironically, it also happened when I started taking my BC. So after doing some research I found I'm not the only one with these symptoms. There's HUNDREDS. So I decided when W left, I'd stop. I don't NEED it, as I'll have no one to bump dirties with and hopefully it will help clear up my emotions! haha!
Anyway. Lots going on in life and I've come up with several ideas to help pass the time with out my honey. If you need help, wanna hang, ANYTHING, I'm free. Well, except for when I have to go to the gym. That's a must ;)
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
4 Days till im wheels up.
Well I have four more days of freedom, and im gonna do my best to enjoy every second. I leave for Ft. Knox Kentucky in four days for training with the U.S. Army, or as I like to call it summer camp. I'm not all that nervous about the actual training, i've actually been somwhat anxious to start. My only reservation is leaving the love of my life for the next 6 to 7 months, its gonna be hard. We are in a great place in our relationship right now so im confident that this separation will only make us a stronger couple. We've come a long way living together for more than a year now, lots of ups and downs but for the last several months we've really come together. Im looking forward to spending the rest of my life with her and I know that 7 months is just a drop in the bucket.
I think my biggest fear as far as basic training is the possibility of failure due to somthing I can't control. I'm 27 years old and going into Army basic training with a bunch of 18 and 19 year olds, so im gonna be the old man. It's going to be tough but it's somthing i've wanted all my life. I tried to enlist in 2001 but I was too fat to join. I then tried in 2005 but again was too big so I put myself through the police academy. Well here I am again and this time it worked, the army lowered its standards just enough for me to get in.
Once im done at Ft. Knox I head down to Ft. Samhouston,tx and lucky for me it'll be winter so not so hot, thank god. I joined as a combat medic and this is where I will be going to school to get my medic training. Ill be there for about 16 or 17 weeks provided all goes well.
Well anyway i'll be gone for a while training and missing loved ones, namely my girl. I'm hopeing i'll be so busy that the time goes quickly, but I know it still won't be fast enough.
I think my biggest fear as far as basic training is the possibility of failure due to somthing I can't control. I'm 27 years old and going into Army basic training with a bunch of 18 and 19 year olds, so im gonna be the old man. It's going to be tough but it's somthing i've wanted all my life. I tried to enlist in 2001 but I was too fat to join. I then tried in 2005 but again was too big so I put myself through the police academy. Well here I am again and this time it worked, the army lowered its standards just enough for me to get in.
Once im done at Ft. Knox I head down to Ft. Samhouston,tx and lucky for me it'll be winter so not so hot, thank god. I joined as a combat medic and this is where I will be going to school to get my medic training. Ill be there for about 16 or 17 weeks provided all goes well.
Well anyway i'll be gone for a while training and missing loved ones, namely my girl. I'm hopeing i'll be so busy that the time goes quickly, but I know it still won't be fast enough.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
8 days...
So yup, I know it's dumb to count down the days till he leaves but I can't help think about it. I want to be strong, but I know there will be points where i'll just break down. He has become part of my life, my everyday and I wouldn't change one second of it. Ultimately what I'll have to learn to do is just learn to live with out him for now. I know I sound lame and worthless, but I love this man. I love being with him, being around him and wouldn't choose to be away from him. Yes we live our own lives, yes we can do things apart, but simple things like going to bed... alone... just breaks my heart. I'm going to use this time apart as a time for me to grow, to be a better woman for him and me. This will start by getting off these damn birth control pills. I think they're effecting my body and emotions in ways I don't like so, I'm going to get off them and hope it helps. Second, I've got to hit the gym.. hard. I mean on days off, 2 a days. What better do I have to do? Unless of course I have plans. Third, eating better. I need to start thinking of food as fuel. Limit the bad and load up on the good. I want to look good, feel good and act good.
I'll end with one of my favorite quotes...
"Absence is to love as wind is to fire; It extinguishes the small and kindles the great." ~Roger de Bussy-Rabutin
I'll end with one of my favorite quotes...
"Absence is to love as wind is to fire; It extinguishes the small and kindles the great." ~Roger de Bussy-Rabutin
Sunday, July 12, 2009
28 days :(
So, yeah... This is not something I'll enjoy writing about, but I guess you can't dodge the truth. My Bub leaves in 28 days for basic in Kentucky. He'll be there for roughly 10 weeks then I'll get to see him (hopefully, if work lets me) for his boot camp graduation. Then he's off to Texas to do his AIT, the school he goes to to get his specific training for his job (a medic). So all in all he won't be home until February or March. It's going to be a tough time, but I believe we'll make it :)
It was his 27th birthday on Friday! What an awesome day! We woke up and I fed him french toast and eggs, then he opened his presents (corn hole, Gran Torino (the movie) and an iPod touch). Then we headed up the hill to go horseback riding!! What a WONDERFUL time! We both had a blast. I rode Sisco and Wayne rode Chief! Our guide was from Tennessee and the nicest man ever. We rode with a couple from Kentucky. It was really awesome.
After the horse ride we went to lunch at Mooses Tooth. Bub's favorite local pizza joint. Then we went on a mission to find bean bags for the corn hole since the ones I ordered weren't gonna be in for a bit. Once we found some we stopped and got some dessert at DQ (Bub's request), then headed back home and played a few games of corn hole. All in all it was an amazing night. I hope he had as great of time as I did!
Unfortunately though this will be our last day off together until the weekend before he leaves when we'll be going down to Valdez to do some fishing and spend some quality time together. It's bitter sweet. I can't wait to spend that time with him, but at the same time that tells me that he's leaving.. I've decided though that i'm gonna do like a jelly bean jar for how many days he'll be gone. that way i eat one a day and the jar will get emptier and emptier :)
Anyway, other than that, we're just carrying on our normal lives. I started some plants from seed at the end of the spring. I honestly can't even remember everything I planted, but I do know my morning glories just bloomed and they're just gorgeous. I know my marigolds are about to bloom. My sweet peas are still growing UP. my poppies took a turn for the worse when I went to Valdez for the weekend and left Bub to take care of them. ;) I only tease. Bub's tomato plants are doing good. growing growing growing. I'm sad to say I don't think they're going to produce fruit before he leaves. Sad. I have a whole other bed of plants that I'm not even sure what they are. Oh well, I'm sure they'll be pretty.
We're still trying to stay in the fit game. We're not going as crazy as we used to, only because we're really trying to make the most of our time left together. If we can't make it to the gym because we'd rather stay on the couch and cuddle, so be it. That doesn't bother me a bit. My plan is while he's going to just go crazy. I know I have the determination and will power to lose the weight I want to and I think with W being gone it will just give me that EXTRA motivation that just pushes me. I can't wait. Yet another bitter sweet moment.
Anyway, I'm starting to carry on and I think you get the point of our life for now. If you made it this far, you rock. peace
It was his 27th birthday on Friday! What an awesome day! We woke up and I fed him french toast and eggs, then he opened his presents (corn hole, Gran Torino (the movie) and an iPod touch). Then we headed up the hill to go horseback riding!! What a WONDERFUL time! We both had a blast. I rode Sisco and Wayne rode Chief! Our guide was from Tennessee and the nicest man ever. We rode with a couple from Kentucky. It was really awesome.
After the horse ride we went to lunch at Mooses Tooth. Bub's favorite local pizza joint. Then we went on a mission to find bean bags for the corn hole since the ones I ordered weren't gonna be in for a bit. Once we found some we stopped and got some dessert at DQ (Bub's request), then headed back home and played a few games of corn hole. All in all it was an amazing night. I hope he had as great of time as I did!
Unfortunately though this will be our last day off together until the weekend before he leaves when we'll be going down to Valdez to do some fishing and spend some quality time together. It's bitter sweet. I can't wait to spend that time with him, but at the same time that tells me that he's leaving.. I've decided though that i'm gonna do like a jelly bean jar for how many days he'll be gone. that way i eat one a day and the jar will get emptier and emptier :)
Anyway, other than that, we're just carrying on our normal lives. I started some plants from seed at the end of the spring. I honestly can't even remember everything I planted, but I do know my morning glories just bloomed and they're just gorgeous. I know my marigolds are about to bloom. My sweet peas are still growing UP. my poppies took a turn for the worse when I went to Valdez for the weekend and left Bub to take care of them. ;) I only tease. Bub's tomato plants are doing good. growing growing growing. I'm sad to say I don't think they're going to produce fruit before he leaves. Sad. I have a whole other bed of plants that I'm not even sure what they are. Oh well, I'm sure they'll be pretty.
We're still trying to stay in the fit game. We're not going as crazy as we used to, only because we're really trying to make the most of our time left together. If we can't make it to the gym because we'd rather stay on the couch and cuddle, so be it. That doesn't bother me a bit. My plan is while he's going to just go crazy. I know I have the determination and will power to lose the weight I want to and I think with W being gone it will just give me that EXTRA motivation that just pushes me. I can't wait. Yet another bitter sweet moment.
Anyway, I'm starting to carry on and I think you get the point of our life for now. If you made it this far, you rock. peace
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